Archive for December, 2005

Good news…

Wednesday, December 28th, 2005

Had the CT scan to check progression on Friday morning. I do not like CT scans for a couple reason, first is that i have to drink 1/2 a liter of Berry Barium which… tastes DISGUSTING thursday night. I could not eat or drink til my CT scan, had to drink 3 more glasses of limonade Barium… get an IV!!!! and then feel like i pooped myself again. *sigh* that sucks. headed down to Chatt for christmas with the family.

Saturday we did church at the 3rd then a small nap. then i wanted a nap but no…. dakota had to get outta the fence for the 385th time and ran 3/4 a mile down the road with Cheyenne in tow… so after finally convincing them to turn around and chase everything living thing on the way back i got em in the fence. Nana, Bampi and Grannie came over for an evening dinner, then gifts stuff. After some nice gift things we watched “National Lampoons Christmas Vacation” which is up there on my list of ” i have seen this movie over 10000000 billion times already… its not funny anymore”.

sunday we headed to Vics family for lunch and some gift thingy exchange then Amy headed off to see some friends. i stayed and played games… woohoo i love games!

Monday i slept in and played more games while Amy spent all of our childrens college funds (just kidding) and had a dang good time.

Tuesday did some errands and then headed back to Knoxville which i recieved some good news. nurse called from my cancer doctors place and said that the CT scan showed “A lot of shrinking of my tumor”

so theres your update! got chemo friday so i wont be happy very soon. love yalls…

Past Due I Know..

Thursday, December 22nd, 2005

I know it has been a long long time… lots of things going on.

4th treatment gone and done… seems i am more and more tired each time but thats ok, i am taking it easy at school. we got out of school at noon yesterday so i have two weeks to rest, play games and see the relatives down in Chatanooga.

Tomorrow i have a CT scan scheduled for 8:30 in the morning :( but this is needed to check progression. i am not looking forward to it since i have to drink that Barium stuff tonight and then get a GIAGANTIC IV shoved in my wrist then shoved on a diving board sized table then slid into a donut that is spinning at a quadrillion rotations per second!

AFter the ct scan its down south we are headed for xmas vacation for a few days then Amys gotta work and work and work.

Anyway my brains are scattered so i need to go soak in the tub while i read my book and just take it easy! hope you guys have a wonderful xmas break and i’ll try to update somethings soon!

love yalls!!!

Wow… powerful weekend…

Monday, December 12th, 2005

As many of you know, this weekend Amy and I headed up to VA to my folks place in the Shenandoah Valley for our Christmas celebration as well as an annointing ceremony concocted by my brother. So after leaving school Friday Amy and I got to my folks house about 10:30 in the evening. Upon arrival we found everyone relaxing in front of a fireplace because it was COLD outside and there was SNOW on the ground.

Now first off I am immediatly excited by my family yes but also by the SNOW. I haven’t seen snow in about two years and I miss it oh so much! Then there is the fireplace which is just AWESOME when its cold. Anyway, after hugs and such we sat down to chat for awhile about this and that. I was later told that my mother was kinda nervous about seeing me because she has never seen me with a completely shaved head before and was wondering if I looked funny… MOTHER… OF COURSE I LOOK FUNNY, I HAVE DADS LOOKS!

It was nice being able to sit around and chat with family. Amy ended up sleeping in front of the fire until about 2:00 am while Tommy and I were playing around. After a goodnight sleep Amy and I headed in to hear one of Pastor Shane Andersons amazing sermons. He is an amazing man of God and is an excellent spiritual leader for the New Market church. His sermon was on preparing the congregation to hear his up coming sermons on “walking on water”. Basically he talked about how to fail, so that we can understand how to succed in making a difference NOW in speeding up Christs second coming by accepting the latter rain. He actually go the entire congregation to move at the end of the sermon by everyone coming up front and kneeling and asking for the outpouring of the Holy Spirit. Needless to say, it was powerful stuff. If any of you are interested in hearing his sermons you can contact me, my dad, or check New Markets main website. Click HERE to check out the website!

After church we had lots of family and friends come over for lunch and eventually TWO annointings! The food was great and the company excellent and around 3:30ish, Shane came over to start preparing myself and a really really good family friend Mr. Bill to annointed. It was a very special service requiring me to sit in a chair in the middle of the family room with everyone kneeling around me (wow did i feel like Joseph with all the sheeves of wheat bowing down… just kidding) and laying their hands on me while the Elders prayed, the pastor praying and annointing and then anyone else who wanted to offer up requests to God for healing and for His will to be done. What was awesome was the way i felt, I started out feeling all important and big but as the prayers went up, I felt smaller and smaller, like an “out of body experience” but in a way that I knew I was a very small person and that God is a very VERY big being. The Holy Spirit was in the room and I know that God is working in my life and in the lives of those around me.

ok while praying, we’re all crying and stuff and i have a runny nose. thats an embarrassing thing when your hands are being held by other people and your nose is running. I looked like a St. Bernard except the drool isn’t coming out of my mouth but oozing a 12 inch long dribble of snot. Just shows that God has humor in serious events

After everyone who wanted to pray had prayed we took a few minutes to dry our eyes, chat a bit, then have Mr. Bill get into the “hot seat” We layed our hands on him and asked that he be healed of his cancer as well. He has a passion and fire to share the love of God, especially in Pathfinders and the youth. It is amazing the way he and I have grown closer through our turmoil and I know that the reason i partially have this cancer is to help understand what he is going through to try and help support him. He has been an inspiration and huge supporter to me and I thank him so much for everything that he has done.

The afternoon part was spent hearing silly stories about the Shack Dogz, different recent stories, things on how blessed we are etc. The fellowship was excellent and I thank everyone that could attend, who was there in spirit, and those were didn’t want to come because I look funny :) Thanks to my family for being there, Tommy for setting it all up, Shane for doing the ceremony, friends for the good laughs, and everyone else.

That evening Amy and mom went shopping (bleh) so the rest of us who were remaning played some Rook, BS, ate some food and just relaxed. About 10:00 i was exhausted and couldn’t take anymore so I retired for some of the best sleep I have had in a long time!

Sunday Amy and I were up at 8:30, 8:30 ON AN SUNDAY!!!! BLAHHHHHH I MUST BE CURED!!!!! Usually i sleep until 10 or 11! Anyway we got up, I played some World Of Warcraft, and prepared for a big lunch that would be our Christmas dinner. So we had some Meritime patties, Leek and Potatoe Caserole, Mandarine Oranges in Jello, Herb Bread (and Garlic bread). I twas DELICIOUS. After dinner we opened presents and sat around a bit and played of ‘Boggle’

It was a good weekend but one thing was lacking, and that was my little brother Matthew. I have been reading his blogs and he sounds really homesick and asks the question “have you seen growth in me” and i think that is a valid question. I have seen maturity in his posts and in the mssages he sends me. So Matthew, I have seen growth especially with dealing with the principal that one time. I know its tough to be over there, I was in England for a bit and you are farther away and for a longer period of time and there is a certain lady friend waiting for you. So it is WAY tougher then when I was away. But you are putting everything in Gods hands, and that right there proves that you are mature, mature enough to know where to place your problems. So keep that contact with God open and you will go far.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day and please keep in touch!

Update… Finally?!

Wednesday, December 7th, 2005

Sorry that webpage hasn’t been up in awhile, lots of things going on that I cannot take care of (webpage is actually taken care of in VA by a friend of mine and the servers went down over the weekend so nadda).

Treatment went alright Friday, its the 3rd one of 12 total, so those math majors (or 3rd graders for that matter) should know that that means i am 25% of the way done. The doc said that by “feeling” my enlarged lymph noide, that he “thinks” it isn’t as firm or as large. Says that I have gained some weight which is a good thing and that my White Blood Cell count is up (thanks to the Nulasta shots Amy has the enjoyment of giving me every day after treatments). So things are looking up.

Saturday we went to church, which is a good thing since my principle presented me with a “prayer” quilt from her daughter in laws church down in FL. I will try to post some pics of it soon as well as take it to VA this weekend for my folks to see. It’s a cool quilt that has pairs of thread all over it, and if someone wants to pray for me, they tie a little knot on a pair of strings. So there are lots of strings with knots. After church we went home, had a little lunch and then I just tried to rest. After a bit of a nap Amy and I explored the idea of the “Sunday Laws” and other end time things on the internet and in the Bible. It is interesting some of the viewpoints that people have about Sabbath Keepers and the likes… just crazy the things they say are support for Sunday worship etc.

Sunday Amy had to work a 12 hour shift so i slept in til 11:30 (couldn’t get to sleep til close to 2:30) and just did things around the house to distract myself from the nausea.

Monday was the lowest day I have had since this stuff started. My stoicism and bravery were gone. Amy had advised me to stay home that day but I went in anyway. It was a good thing I went in because the teacher who normally covers for me was sick, so it gave me a couple hours to get things ready for a sub because I was totally floored. I finally admitted to myself while on the phone with my dad that I cannot put on a face of bravery all the time and expect to “look” like I am alright etc. All the teachers told me to go home and such and I gladly did. Talking with my dad helped me voice my feelings and get some needed support that only my dad could give, kinda like the support only a mother could give and like she has been giving. I had to realize that I cannot just keep on saying things are OK to everyone, sometimes I need to just let it all go and drop it in the Lords lap because its EXHAUSTING trying to make it look like its not affecting me. It was a lesson well learned.

Tuesday I realized early on that I didn’t have the patience or energy to get through a full day so I let my principal know that I was not going to make it and left at lunch for some rest.

Today is Wednesday and there is no nausea so we’ll see how things go. Hope everyone is going well and I’ll keep more interesting things posted maybe, tired of the cancer talks yet? Give me feed back on what you want ot know, hear, learn etc. Have a great day and… yeah…