Ok, i went to go see my specialtist to get some info on my Hodgkins and this is what he tells me. on the aggresive scale from 1-4 i am a 2 and on the stage scale from 1-4 i am a 2 unless there are some cancer cells in my bone marrow. now if you have ever had a bone marrow test you know how they go, numb your butt, then get a pipe shoved in your back and some jellow sucked out. thats the none detailed version. here is my version. the doc had me drop my pants a bit and then he proceded to roll me over on my side facing the wall with my knees in front of me braced against the wall. he told me he needs the knees pressed against the wall so he can push. push what? isn’t he just gonna take some marrow out. anyway he gave me a few shots to help with the pain, funny, cause pain to save pain? well then he says that i have hard bones, so this could be interesting. I heard him get out the jack hammer and start that up and then he said “this could tingle” lets look at www.dictionary.com definition of tingle = “To cause to tingle” odd i dont see anything about the feeling of having someone push on your bone with a very sharp and large object. the pain was, well on par with having someone with a large and very sharp object jabbing you in your bone!!!! the same i know. that was the small vial he needed. then he said he has to go for a big one, big one. he said the pain will last for about 20 seconds. what is this a bull ride? if i scream do we have to start over. well the big sample was on par with, oh, a guy sitting there with a sledge hammer slamming away on a splitting wedge on my hip. ya “20 seconds” poor amy, i think i borke her hands and her eardrums. i bellowed out something about “gollyjeepersthathurtsmorethenanythingicouldeverthingofinmylifeand – idontwanttohearanythingaboutchildbirthingbecausetherecould – benootherpainworsethenthissopleaseletmesqueezethebone – marrowoutofyourhandsandseeif – youlikethepainbecausethishurtslike – !!!onastickdagnabbitiwantafrostyright – aboutnowjuststickitintheIVidont – careifidonthaveanIVbecauseijustwantafrosty – andforthisguytoquitewackingme – withasledgehammer!” yeah something like that. well i am not feeling well so i am going to take a nap, til tuesday when i have my first chemo treatment. so have a wonderful day and think of me when you think of pain!