Well howdy folks it’s me again, that annoying guy with that problem. Anyway got back from a teachers convention today. I went down last night in between percocet pops because if i went during a percocet trip i’d think a semi was a giant hotdog and i would try to eat it going 80 mph. talked about… turning kids into disciples last night, this morning talked about our changing from TN healthcare to BCBS (blue cross blue shield) and then after lunch talked about retirement (which tommy was quick to point out that i dont need because i’ll be dead in a few weeks – guess thats what older brothers are for).
It was nice seeing some old friends and college classmates. i was really tired today though after talking to about 100 people so i got a quick nap after lunch (about 3 hours long) and missed part of the retirement conference but i wasn’t worried since tommy said i’d die soon anyway who needs retirement!
I am still in quite a bit of pain from the port in my chest. the incision (did i spell that right Aunt E.?) in my leg doesn’t hurt that much, in fact i can walk without looking like a gimp but its tough when someone runs up to give me a hug and i have to tackle them so they dont push my port into my spine.
I had to duck out early because tomorrow (tuesday) i am supposed to have a dr appointment with the specialist discussing what needs to happen. so on the way home i called some people and found out from amy that my specialist told her that the lymph noid they so unceremoniously yanked outta my leg was inflammed (well you would be too if you were all warm and coazy then got sliced and yanked outta your home) and they needed another sample to see the cancer. So tomorrow i will talk with the surgeon to see what he needs to do and when i need to be in there for him to do some more mining of my innards. at least they wont have to stick me in the arm for the iv this time, they can use this cool nifty port i have in my chest.
on the way home i was talking with my mom and i made the comment that i am blessed to have cancer and that struck me as odd since, well, most people aren’t blessed to have bad things happen to them. i am not sure why i made the statement until i heard what else came out explaining to my mother what i meant. kind of odd when you say stuff you’re not sure what you saying. anyway it made sense to me, im blessed to have this becuase of so many good things that are happening because of this. i know of 3 people that aren’t close to God who are now opening up that important channel called “prayer” as they pray for my family. i am blessed to know that God can start working in their lives now that they have opened up that door. i am blessed to see how well my family is supporting one another, how quick my church is to support and rally each other up in times of need. i am blessed to know that so many people care about me and support my belief that i want Gods Will to be carried out more then my healing. i am blessed with a wonderful network of friends and family that will drive down on the weekends to watch movies and play games, cook choplets for Amy and i, sit out in the waiting room with my wife while i am being worked on, who pray throughout the day and sometimes the night for the strength that i need, for sharing with their students even though they are thousands of miles away. there are so many things that people are doing not just for me but for my family, other friends. i am blessed with cancer if not for the simple fact that i know in my heart… that i am right with God and when the time comes, tomorrow or in 50 years, when i die i’ll see Jesus face.
We all need our reality checks i needed cancer, what do you need?
love you all with all i have.
-geoff w